Memoirs Of J

Is it bad if I drove by a cemetery today and thought to myself “lucky bastards?”

Sigh… I’m too stressed. 🙁

I haven’t heard anything yet on the job I applied for.  This company takes so damn long to go through this process.  The post just expired this Monday, so I’m sure they’re going through the applicants now.  I really, really hope I get it!

There are several things bothering me at the moment but I don’t want to put it here.  Let’s just say that the shit outweighs the good, so there’s a LOT of shit going on.

I applied for a new position at work today.  We’ll see if I even get an interview, but my hopes are slightly elevated!  It’s a spot in budgeting and forecasting.  I have no budgeting / forecasting experience but I’m hoping my master’s in accounting and above average SAP skills will give me an edge.  The posting emphasized someone who is able to prioritize and analyze well, and I can definitely do that so … I guess we’ll see what happens.

I’ve just been so uneasy about this whole outsourcing effort, even though they say we’re all safe and nobody will lose their job.  I guess I believe it for the short-term but beyond that who knows what will happen and I don’t want to spend the next couple of years fretting about it.  I don’t know that I really belong in IT anyway.  I mean I have a business / financial education and here I am in IT.  I like what I do now but with the impending changes who knows if I would enjoy it anymore.

So maybe it’s time to for something new…

I think last week some guy said ‘ugh’ (as in disgust) when his friend almost pushed him into me. I am not in my teens / 20’s anymore so when is this shit going to stop? At some point, won’t I be exempt from this due to being old or something? Am I really that fucking ugly that people have to gasp in disgust when they see my face? I mean I’m not shockingly obese or smelly or something really that striking. So is my face really that hideous?  🙁
I’m already aware that some of my friends will tell me this is all in my head but I think you are incorrect.