This time of year is so depressing. I was sitting here today dreading having to go back to work tomorrow (therefore wasted the entire day with worry and dread) when I realized that – shit – we don’t get another holiday until May, I think. So the fact that I have nothing to really look forward to now, coupled with the dreary, drab, cold, and bleak time of year is seriously dragging me down. Yes, it seems that my so-called depression has once again gripped me in its unyielding throes.
And, oh by the way I just (as in two days ago) decided that I need to get off my Zoloft so already began weaning myself by halving the dose. Brilliant…
Actually, it just occurred to me that maybe because I started weaning myself off my crutch I’m starting to feel sad again. I really don’t know… chicken or the egg I guess. It doesn’t help that I received some pretty shitty news today too. Maybe (hopefully) my mood will improve tomorrow, but I doubt it. Alas, it’s Monday and I have to work. Same old crap over and over again. Get up, drop J at daycare, work all day, pick J up, go home, chase her around, have dinner, see C for a mere couple of hours, sit, sleep, repeat.
In hopes of heading this off (or maybe it is combating it at this point), I signed up for a photography class tonight. It’s an 8 week course on fundamentals. I’ve been interested in creating artistic shots for some time now, and keep telling myself I need to take a class to learn settings and so forth so finally just did it. What the hell, right? Now I just need to fit my photography assignments into the routine…. or rather, break up the dreaded routine…
January 10th, 2011 at 19:53
You have skiing to look forward to with us girls 🙂
January 10th, 2011 at 21:19
Very true 🙂